Burry my castle

I wanna do a polyvore post on whats so popular thats so over rated but yet still very loved and pieces of new stuff to love. But polyvore is quite slow as it loads the little tiny pics so it gets annoying. At the same time i for some reason know that im gonna blog is so i took it SO seriously that im annoying myself out. I took quite a while just browsing through the outfits and all that. I can remember the days when i would take The Sims so seriously. I made sure i pimped my sims' room perfectly. I'd do over and over again. Choosing new furnitures, repositioning them and all that.
We used to take turns to furnish our own Sims when me and Samu slept over at Kim's. I would take ages to do mine.
Its like when i start to do something, it has to be perfect or else i wouldnt even bother touching it. My room is always a mess but once i start cleaning it has to be spick and span and perfectly done. I have an obsession over organising stuff in seperate drawers and plastic bags. I cant put things in order or tidy things up if i dont have the space to do all that.

Sorry for the late post. I just didnt have the mood to blog this few days.
now that i do i wanna share just pics of me last night.
I went out with Ta som and Sunny. Drank at Ruai. I did my hair in a hippie braid for the first time. I think hairstyle is so imortant when it comes to completing a whole fashionable look.



I also had white mascara base on. I applied it without the black. It looked pretty cool in real life. Something different, which inspired me to look for white fake lashes. I looked like a bird though, so i gave in and wore the black mascara over the white base.

A fucking mug shot. HAHA

I admit that im not really photogenic. When i look at myself in the mirror i think its all perfect. But just when i test it out on the camera lens, sometimes i feel like im disastrous. Like 'oh god! this aint good.'

I really wish i could be taller or at least thinner so that i'll looke longer than i do now. I wished i listened to my mums advise and drank more milk and exercised or skipped on the rope. But i didnt, i told myself that as long as one has a pretty face everything would be fine. Plus, if youre short you can date any guys coz they'll be taller than you. Then i had a shit face, so i was more concerned about my skin and hair and my fug face then my height. I was way more concerned about my neck and above to think of my shorty problem. Also, i used to skip P.E and just sit around or play hola hoops while all the other students palyed baseball or basketballs. I was bad at any balls. Full stop.

I also HATED the guys who tried to be cool and played basketball in their expensive nike shoes and wore pants that was about to fall.

Yes, a lot of hatred and anger indeed.

Im still 40 % of what i used to be, which i figured that are interesting traits and that would not ever change.

Gunshots and depression are the new it thing

Mum's back from Taiwan and has got loads of new goodies for her shop.
New shoes to feed my obsession too :)

Peep toe leaopard wedge

Red ballerina flats.

Leopard bag and brown leather vintage sling bag. I LOVE LOVE leopard. enough said

Hair bows for the new year

Finally, my Gaga album. Its been sold out everywhere and mum had to look in lots of CD shop for her album. It was all sold out untill she found one at the Taipei airport's record store. They didnt have The Fame Monster Deluxe edition though. But at least i got the non limited edition version. Just the CD itself is good for me.

Im so into bows. Its that preppy thing I love the most. Im not very into preppy chic. I do think some girls can pull it off really well. This bow is fantastic, with jewels and netting. Its in my mums shop as well.

MORE BOWS!!!

A 'winter bow'. I just made that up coz theres the autumn bow, spring bow and summer bow!

Im munching on oval shaped black grapes while typing this post. I ve been in my room these past days. On the internet and watching SATC. I kinda enjoy it sometimes but other times it relly does drive me mad. There are times when i thought to myself

"If i ve moved to KL, would my lifestyle be more interesting?"

I know i wouldve missed the birth of Mimi's babies and i would definitely miss Mimi SOOO much. But would i be going out more? Would i finally feel like i fit in and will i make new friends?

I was speaking to a good friend of mine the other day. She apparently has that exact same problem as me. Having the problem to click with people and making female friends. Thinking theres a problem with her. Do all of my really close female friends have all that one problem in common? Females just hate us?

Strawberries and wayferer. The best combination ever. Not only are strawberries cute and gorgeous, they taste yummy too. Mum actually hid a box of strawberries in her luggage and carried them back. If i had siblings i swear we cant even share that.

Everyday i dream of the day when i can leave and live in the world i call mine. I can dress the way i want to dress, go places i want to go and just have that ultimate freedom. I cant live without money, freedom, and friends. I become emotional, depressed, and very cranky. Which is what i usually deal with every day. But is still stay positive. I feel very trapped in my apartment with my cats and my room. As beautiful as it looks, but only on the surface. It is just as ugly and unhappy as it is. Am i being a fucking spoilt naive dreamer??

Maybe this is what being alone does to you. It really fucks you up. Or do i just have Bipolar disorder. I cant be having hormonal imbalance anymore. Im for god sakes turning 21 and my period is very regular, thank you.

I know for sure, when im done with my last semester in college before my degree. I gotta leave. I have to leave. This is just pure mental torture everyday. To see those i care for move on and leave, bites me in the ass to know that im the last. As they leave me one by one, the people im ever so familiar with are just cuting by numbers. I dont want to be the only one left here. As a competitive person i am, i never ever want to be the last in anything. It just kills me. Why does it always have to feel like a race?

Turban cotton headband (pink): Taiwan. If you want one go get it at Hock Lee ground floor opposite copal and next to the Motorola Counter. Thats my mums store. You can get one there. Tell her i want your Angel's pink head scarf.

Neon Pink leggings: Online shop www.shoppingroll.blogspot.com (KL) RM 40.

Red baby tee (MOVE! youre blocking the sexy people): Gift from Dex

Peep toe leopard wedge: Taiwan

Its 8.00pm and i still dont feel like showering.

Its so quiet out there that i wonder how many hours birds sleep? How do birds have sex? Do they mate at night? Do they mate on their nest by any chance? Do non mammals get period?

The Nothing Book

One thing about Malaysia that i really wish it will change..
people should really be less racist and appreciate each other's culture.
How boring would it be if you dont get to see the rest of race in Malaysia? Kuching itself is quite boring, it is only more interesting because there are extra public holidays, and festivities by different races; i.e Chinese New Year, Christmas, Gawai, Deepavali, and Hari Raya. WIthout all those events i think Kuching would 've been dead and 'event-less'. Very sad.

My mum was at the KL airport because her plane from KL to Kuching was delayed. Her and two other Taiwanese passengers were tired and trying to communicate with the ticketing counter people. They had a problem communicating in English and in BM so they asked if they had any chinese working there to help them out. These stupid people said:
'No, this is Malaysia so we are Malays.'
The most retarded and racist thing someone has said. They work in a dam International airport where theyre supposed to be dealing with passengers from across the world. So expect Chinese people who are poor in English and obviously Bahasa. SO they think Chinese in Malaysia aint Malaysians??
No wonder Chinese in Malaysia hate non- chinese.

They freaking work in a service sector and they gave such a rude response. Why isnt there one chinese in a god dam international airport? Unless theyre racist that they only hire non chinese at the air port when they know a chinese is obviously needed at an airport when it comes to International Chinese passengers.

Maybe those fucktards should go China, Japan or Taiwan for holidays and have the information counter tell them that
"sorry, we dont speak English or Malay coz you know this is China and we're chinese so figure out yourself"
well, that wouldnt happen because no matter how poor the English skills are for the Jap/Korean/chinese they will still speak crappy English to anyone who needs help.

My mum said
"so what happened to that One Malaysia thing you guys are trying to promote?"
the people kept quiet and sat there like theyre dumb. So the other Taiwanese got real pissed and insisted that they do something about the situation (coz they were told to wait at the air port and stay overnight when in Taiwan they were told that the Malaysian Airport will be responsible for the hotel room services.) or she'll KILL THEM ALL and that she really will do it.
They panicked and booked them a room in some hotel, free of charge.
I have so much bad experiences with the KL airport employee that i seriously wanna kick their fat ass throw bacon at them. Maybe there should be a KL airport employess are unefficient rude jerks fan page on FB.


One skirt two ways..